Octet - Refresh Lyrics

2019 A Chamber Choir Musical
Octet the Musical - Refresh Lyrics


Music and lyrics by Dave Malloy.

JESSICA: (spoken)
Hi, my name is Jessica and I'm an addict

OTHERS: (spoken)
Hi Jessica

JESSICA: (spoken)
“Addict.” God that's still so hard to say.​
So I had a bit of a relapse this weekend.​
I had been doing really good, you know?
Installed trackers, installed blockers
Deleted non-essential apps
Turned off notifications
Turned off push.​

But then I
It’s so simple.​
I had an urge
And I said why not?
One peek won't hurt.​

C​HORUS:
Refresh

JESSICA: (spoken)
I hadn't egosurfed in a while.​

C​HORUS:
Refresh, refresh

JESSICA: (spoken)
Not since my…incident.​

C​HORUS:
Refresh, refresh, refresh, refresh

JESSICA:
Yes I am jessica
That one
Righteous mobmind casualty
Sacrificial lamb
That I am

(spoken) You've all seen my “white woman goes crazy” video.​

C​HORUS:
Hey

JESSICA:
Thank you, thank you

C​HORUS:
Hey

JESSICA: (spoken)
Fuck context right?

I actually saw it
Before I was id'ed
Saw this video of a woman losing it
Circulating in my feed
Voices sound familiar
Recognize the place
And then I saw her

My face
Is that my face?
My face
Is that my face?

And I'd be like
Click swipe fuck click
Swipe fuck click swipe
Fuck click swipe fuck

JESSICA & C​HORUS:
Click click

JESSICA:
Those first few hours
Those first few days
I was glued
To the lewdness
On my screen
Reading everything about me
In morbid flagellation
Multitasking all the tabs
Of my humiliation

C​HORUS:
Refresh

JESSICA:
What did this small person say?

C​HORUS:
Refresh refresh

JESSICA:
What did these dozen small persons say?

C​HORUS:
Refresh refresh refresh

JESSICA:
Every voice is equal
Every voice gets in

It was like my eyes were sewn open
With a piece of electric thread
Go to bed
Go to bed
No but just one more
One shallow little phrase
Would light my brain like a torch
I became a junkie for it
Digging deep for all the memes and posts
To make me feel more shitty
Make my shame hurt the most
And I'd be like

JESSICA & C​HORUS:
Click swipe fuck click
Swipe fuck click swipe
Fuck click swipe fuck
Click click

My name
Is that my name?
My name
Is that my name?

JESSICA:
Oh god
Oh god

I watched myself reborn as an icon
For awfulness and hate

So then I went away
To the forest
No reception
Just refresh

Make my head feel clean
Water
Candles
Soap
Sun
Sky
Clear
Attention
Simple
Stillness
Silence
The forest was beautiful

Refresh
Refresh refresh
Refresh refresh refresh

But we all have to come back
So I came back

But of course there's no coming back
No rehabilitation
No nuance
Just noise
And complete annihilation
The mob never forgets
The mob never forgives

Even though you don't fucking know me at all
No you've no fucking idea what you are talking about
But I am yelling at a stranger
And a mindwaste
At a petty child robot
Aw come on come on come on now

Stone me
Bone me
Spunk me
Junk me
Dox me
Pox me
Shame me
Maim me
Hate me
Destroy me
Fuck me
Enjoy me

I am cancelled
No parole
No release
Huh
Would you like that?

It's hard to get close to new people now
I don't go out much
I wear a hat and a trenchcoat
Like a pervert

C​HORUS:
Refresh refresh refresh

JESSICA: (spoken)
This all happened so fast
Too fast for our fledgling empathy
The tech got away from us
And we weren't ready
I don't think we're wired to handle this

CHORUS:
Refresh refresh refresh


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